Amanderson

Being a servant of Christ is the laying down of one’s life in order to make somebody’s better.

Aaron Sabio said this to me today.

And it kind of pierced my heart like nothing has in a long time. Ouch. Convicted.

I have people in my life that don’t give. I give and I give and I give to them. And I get nothing in return. It’s honestly the hardest thing for me to feel that. And to feel like people don’t even want or need me to care. 

Yet, I know that someday I’ll look back and wish that I could care for people just because I love them. Not because they appreciate it. Not because they deserve it. Not because they give anything in return. But because God placed them in my life, right in front of me, to love on. 

Jesus does that for me everyday. Sometimes I ignore Him. Sometimes I grieve Him. Sometimes I don’t listen. I don’t deserve anything from Him. I don’t even express my appreciation as much as I should. But the love He has is deeper still. It’s stronger than I will ever know. It is patient, kind, and selfless. How does He do that? His love is so perfect. He displayed it so brutally on the cross for me and wove it through His Word for me to meditate on whenever I want.

This is how I want to love. I have such a long way to go and I don’t plan on attaining this completely, but this is the road I want to take. I want to learn to love the ones God has put in front of me. 

But there’s this thing called my flesh that wars against this desire. There’s nothing it wants more than to be loved. To expect something in return. To have others think I deserve to be appreciated. To be noticed. To be valued. To be thought highly of. To the point where I want it so bad that my love becomes conditional on what I can receive back.

This is not love, but merely an exchange of services. I give you what you need, you give me what I need, and we’re set to go. Yes, there are relationships that work beautifully in this way. But when they don’t, I’m still called to love. I’m still called to put aside my needs. I am called to let the love of Christ be what moves me. He bore my sins in His own body and was brought to death because He values me. He notices me. He thinks highly of me. And when others don’t…

I’m still called to lay down my life to make someone else’s better.

Matthew 6:25-34

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Day 12.

Day 12: How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one.

This girl.

Day 11.

Day 11: Another picture of you and your friends.

Luh these people.

Day 10.

Day 10-Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

Happy: Love story by T-Swift: especially at the key change

Sad: I Never Told You by Colbie: I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU

Bored: Anything OneRepublic, takes me back.

Hyped: SOLO by Jason Derulo: luuuuuvin cloud nine, my head’s in the sky

Day 9.

Day 09-Something your proud of in the past few days.

Well, I read my textbook for once. 

I got to hangout with Kirsten and her baby (cutest one in the whole entire world).

I went shopping. 

And….wool, I bought a sweater with a sheep on it. 

Learned a little more swing dancing from PJ.

Got excited that I might move somewhere soon.

if a guy wants to talk to you, he will.

brittneyinazkaban:

so calm down.

Day 8.

Day 08-short term goals for this month

-Be studious and actually read my textbooks

-Write a song/put a melody to one I have lyrics for

-Clean my room…like clean it out and get rid of stuff

-Get my car fixed 

-Read my Bible more!

-Start working at TJ Maxx or get another job

-Set a whole night aside to go to a park/pretty place around sunset and hangout with the Lord

-Lots of fun plans for this month! And October, too! Excited. 

Day 6. / Day 7.

Day 06-Favorite super hero and why

Day 07-a picture of  someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Well. These 2 go hand-in-hand. Sorry to be all cheesy but I’m not even all that fond of super heroes and I don’t think I could even pick one that is my favorite…and Jesus is the best super hero of them all anyway. He saved me from myself, that was headed to hell, that lacked hope. He shined light on my life and promised eternity in heaven to me. He laid down His life for me, conquered the grave, and now allows that resurrection power into my life. He gives me grace every day…He IS the grace I am desperately in need of every moment.  

Thus, His Word is what has had the biggest impact on me. Changed my life forever.

“How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to your Word” Ps. 119:9